Believe without seeing

I wish I could say I learned to trust and never once faltered thereafter.

But sometimes we expand and improve and gain new clarity, only to quickly feel overwhelmed by unwanted conditions.

The path back to trust, surrender, and ease from the midst of dissatisfaction seems elusive, yet we will feel better eventually.

Abraham-Hicks teaches that as we feel better it’s like a stream flowing much faster, and in that fast-flowing stream our resistance seems amplified.

The amplification of resistance serves us because we can better release it when it comes to our attention.

We are learning to feel good unconditionally, and sometimes that means making peace with the absence of our desired conditions.

I am learning to trust, and sometimes that means experiencing the momentum of my old, distrustful thoughts.

Making peace

It’s one thing to believe that things are still working out for you in health, finances, or relationships.

It’s another thing to trust, irrespective of how things appear to be working or not working.

Do you feel good because of conditions, or do you feel good because of trust?

I think the latter is more powerful, and that’s why we want to make peace with where we are.

Last resistance

Maybe it’s just me, but if I’m in pain I might feel better about it because I’m noticing improvement.

There’s nothing wrong with that.

But what if I could feel good because I know that God has already healed me, and it feels good to trust in Him?

What if I feel good because I know that trusting God is how I allow myself to receive the healing He offers?

Isn’t it good to believe without seeing?

And in that case, the unwanted conditions represent my last resistance, my resistance to trust and therefore my resistance to happiness.

Pain and other unwanted conditions capture my attention because part of me still thinks my happiness depends on circumstances.

Part of me still thinks that trust must be backed up by evidence. Part of me is willing to believe without seeing, so long as the “seeing” part comes along quick enough.

This part of me – the momentum of old thoughts – is actively scanning my world and searching for reasons to feel better or feel worse, actively keeping score, actively objecting to unwanted circumstances, actively distrustful of life.

And that’s what creates unwanted circumstances.

Believe without seeing

Why are we blessed if we believe without seeing?

Because if we believe, we feel good, and feeling good is our real receipt of the joy and happiness promised us.

If you don’t believe, you can’t receive anything.

This doesn’t mean struggling to feel good despite all the evidence and circumstances weighed against you. When you actually believe, you feel an inner knowing and appreciation that no longer activates those contentious circumstances.

It’s only our resistance that keeps us focused on the unwanted, the absent, the painful or the broken. Those conditions alert us to our resistance and help us to let it go, choosing instead the power of believing without seeing.

Right now I feel good, and it’s as if I’ve entered a different reality from when I started this post. The conditions that bothered me before are no longer active in my mind. What is active instead is my freedom and satisfaction at having let go of this resistance.

Those thoughts still have momentum, but I’m draining it fast, and adding momentum instead to the joyful thoughts of appreciation and trust.

Feel good all day 15

Today I’ve been learning to trust, and the first lesson is that I can’t trust while grasping for inner certitude.

I’ve often wondered about the line “the son of man has nowhere to lay his head” but right now I think it relates to trust.

For years I sought to understand, but my understanding was about remaining in control. If you know the rules you can avoid mistakes!

But now the rule is to trust without knowing exactly what is going to happen, yet knowing that it will all be for my happiness.

I’d heard before the proverb: “trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding”, but back then I still needed to understand how to do that.

Not any more. I don’t even know if I’m doing it right, so I have to trust even there. The whole thing feels very wobbly right now, so I have to trust that I’m on the right track.

That’s the best I can put it for now: how do I know I’m on the right track? Because I have to trust that I am!