When failure is not a setback

Valentine’s day, and with a new baby we celebrated at home with an assortment of nice foods: cheeses, pâté, dips, and so on.

I ate more than I think I should have, and I’m regretful for not adhering to my diet. I’m still overweight of course, but while eating I “forgot” and just enjoyed the food, with the excuse of it being a special occasion.

I remember this happening last time. I mentioned in my book that I came up with one simple rule to follow…and immediately broke it.

I broke it many times back then. And that doesn’t sound good. I don’t feel good about failing to follow my rule now either.

And yet failure is not a setback. Observing myself honestly during this failure reinforces the lessons I’m learning.

Because now I can see for myself that yes, I did enjoy the food, but that enjoyment was so brief and fleeting and now I feel bored and empty.

I feel physically full, and it doesn’t feel good. I don’t need the energy for anything, so why did I eat that much? I enjoyed the food but surely there’s more for me to enjoy?

Failure is not a setback because it only demonstrates the truth of our situation. You can break the rules as often as you like, but it will only provide more evidence that overeating is a very meagre short-term source of happiness.