Find your inspiration.
I can’t believe it’s been 29 days of focusing on happiness!
I’ll save the recap for tomorrow’s post because today I’m inspired to write about inspiration.
Inspiration is life, my friends.
It comes from the Latin for “breathe into” or “blow upon” like when we blow on the embers of a fire and it springs to life.
But you can’t miss the allusion to Genesis where God created humanity by breathing His spirit into the clay form of the first man.
We are divine spirit in a physical body, and when we feel inspired it’s like we’re receiving a fresh influx of that life-giving breath.
Forget about problems! What inspires you?
Today some contrast helped me to remember an old fear I’ve been keeping alive.
It’s the old fear of not understanding instructions, not knowing what I’m supposed to be doing, and so failing and falling behind and losing hope.
I took those experiences to heart at a young age and resigned myself to having to work things out on my own, in my own way.
I resigned myself to never really understanding, and never succeeding in the “proper” way.
I’m so glad this memory came up, and I’m really appreciating all the work I’ve done to feel better this past month.
Because it only took me an hour or so to allow the answer to come.
All those experiences of “failure” and “not understanding” were about other people’s tasks. School projects, friends’ games, parents’ chores: they were all about being a follower.
Never did I fail at something I was inspired to do! Never have I failed to understand something I actually care about.
Choose your focus
For years I’ve blamed myself for failing at all these “important” things. And yet the real problem all along is that I had no interest in these things in the first place. They were never important to me.
And if you live your life focusing on things that don’t inspire you, of course you won’t succeed. Of course you won’t feel good. Because deep down you don’t even care!
I didn’t care, but I thought I had to care, and so I kept pushing myself and feeling worse and hating it more and blaming myself.
Tell a new story
Well now I know, and I understand perfectly what I need to do. I need to tell a new story that omits all the useless crap I never cared about, and focus instead on what actually inspires me!
I want to look out at life and see a landscape populated by sources of inspiration only.
I want to wake up eagerly wondering what inspired activities I’m going to do today.
And I want to be very deliberately conscious of how good I am at everything I do.
Because I’m no longer going to waste my time on things that don’t inspire me.
I’m going to devote myself to things that feel good, fill me with life, and make that divine spark within me grow bright.