I used to read the Yi Jing a lot, the Chinese Classic of Change.
I often received a result that included words like “It furthers one to have somewhere to go” and “It furthers one to see the great man”.
I baulked at these lines, not because I disagreed with them but because I had nowhere to go, and no idea who “the great man” might be.
Somewhere to go
Throughout my life I’ve often had a yearning to go somewhere, with the sense that once I got there I would find respite and a sense of identity.
But where was this place? All I had was a feeling.
Knowing the INFP temperament, I can see that this Feeling is the place I was yearning for. Not a physical location, but a feeling-place presented to my imagination as a physical location that I had to find.
It was a message from my innermost being, guiding me not to a physical place but to a Feeling where I would find rest and strength.
There was no mystical cave or temple monastery to go to in search of wisdom.
Or maybe there was, but I had already read so many stories of people who travelled to some mysterious destination only to find that what they were looking for was within them all along.
Without going out of your door you can know all things on earth, without looking out of your window you can know the ways of heaven. The farther one travels the less one knows.
Find the feeling
The work I’ve done this past year with the Abraham-Hicks material has shown me that everything begins with the feeling.
It was not fruitless to have only the feeling of the mysterious place I sought; but it was a mistake to discount and suppress the feeling just because I could not find an obvious physical correlation to it.
The feeling itself was the place I needed to find and take comfort in and from.
This is especially true for Melancholic-Phlegmatics (INFP/ENFP) because our yearning and search for ideals means that we don’t always appreciate or move toward real instances of what we desire.
We might look around and see nothing that matches our desire and our ideal, so we tear down the ideal as too vague or too unrealistic or simply unhelpful.
But feeling better is the most helpful thing in the world. Feeling better is the reason why we pursue our ideals in the first place.
It’s not so much that achieving the ideal will make us feel good, but that feeling good is aligned with these particular ideals and desires peculiar to us as individuals.
Re-reading the Yi
Without resistance the idea of having “somewhere to go” elicits a feeling that is very uplifting. In this sense it matches the spirit of “seek and ye shall find”.
Some people know exactly what they want. But for others it’s better to know how we want to feel, and then let feeling be the filter and the guide that brings us to what we desire.
Re-reading the Yi Jing in this light, in a strictly personal, private interpretation, the meaning is much clearer than before because it is unconstrained by worries about objectivity, historicity, and consistency with how others might have read it or are reading it now.
In the reading of omens none of that matters.