If you start paying attention to your thoughts while noticing how each thought feels, you’ll soon discover that some thoughts are a bit strange.
What’s strange about them is that they may be focused on a subject that seems “positive”, yet the thought itself feels negative.
The thought “I need to get something done now” feels both good and bad.
That’s because the subject of accomplishing things is a positive one. I want to accomplish things, it would feel good to accomplish things.
But the focus on “need” is negative. The subtext is that if I don’t accomplish things then I will have failed.
There’s a big difference between “I need to get something done” and thinking of a specific thing I want to do.
“I need to get something done” vs “I really want to do this specific thing”.
The former focuses on the absence of what I desire.
There’s self-sabotage built into this kind of thought. It doesn’t aim towards what I really want, nor does it aim away from what I don’t want.
Instead it beats me up for not doing something unspecified right now.
…which isn’t especially helpful.
Imagine saying it to someone else in an anxious voice: “You should be doing something right now!”
Not especially helpful.
How would they react? Probably with a well-deserved “Wtf are you talking about?”
Imagine saying it to them again and again at every opportunity. Maybe say it every time they sit down, every time they appear to be relaxing or enjoying themselves: “Shouldn’t you be doing something???”
If you don’t pay attention to your thoughts, you’ll just feel a kind of acceptance that you should be doing something… followed by the frustration of not knowing what it is you should be doing.
Maybe you’ll throw yourself into any activity just to escape that unpleasant feeling, and you might be productive.
But there’s a big difference between the productivity that comes from escaping unpleasant feelings and the productivity that comes from doing what you feel genuinely inspired to do.
If you accept the thought at face value then your orientation is toward “I need to do something…but I don’t know what”.
By paying attention to how the thought feels, you notice instead “I’m making myself feel bad for no good reason”.
I wouldn’t have noticed this if I hadn’t decided to pay attention to all of my thoughts.
Imagine choosing to no longer activate thoughts of that type…the “feel bad for no good reason” thoughts.
The trajectory of positive thinking is such that removing these kinds of thoughts makes space for new thoughts, since there’s a limit to the number of things you can focus on in a single day.
But it also lifts your overall mood, removing one source of negativity and thereby making more positive thoughts accessible.
And on the subject of “things I want to accomplish”, perhaps we’re now free to consider things that feel good, instead of repeating thoughts that feel needlessly bad?
Or perhaps what would feel best right now is to accept that the whole subject of accomplishments is not about “should” or obligation, and was never something best framed by need or by external pressure.
Are we best served by approaching accomplishments from the direction of avoiding shame and humiliation? Or are we better served by looking at it through the lens of inspiration and appreciation?
In fact, we might begin by completely letting go of any thought of accomplishment for now, and focusing instead on appreciating the many things we have already accomplished, beginning with the mere fact of being alive, of having survived to enjoy this present moment.