I was planning to retire this site but forgot to switch off auto-renew, so I guess it will stay live for another year!
Would God forget to switch off auto-renew? It doesn’t sound like the action of an omnipotent omniscient being.
But ever since I began my foray into mysticism and spirituality many years ago, the core of every teaching out there has always been: you are God.
What I didn’t know back then was that the dichotomy between the human mind and divine being could be complicated by something like developmental trauma.
Growing awareness of conditions like Complex PTSD show that chronic abuse and neglect can change the shape of our brains in ways that make it really difficult to live normal lives let alone spiritually enlightened ones.
Add to that the fact that so many spiritual teachers and seekers are pretty f-ed up on some level, and usually with unique and idiosyncratic forms of trauma and personal baggage making their success stories unrepeatable.
I thought that turning towards the divine aspect of my own being would make up for whatever anomalies there were in my upbringing and development. But I underestimated the degree to which trauma could colour and distort my perception.
Nonetheless after many years of work I have come full-circle to the simple dichotomy of the human mind and divine being. We are all connected to divine being. We all have the ability to let go of our complex, detailed, and narrow perception of life, and focus instead on the peace and ease and bliss of divine being that exists behind and around and within us.
This divine being feels good and is not shaken or disturbed by the things that upset our human minds. We feel good when we focus more on this part of us. When we focus too much on the human mind and the circumstances around us we exclude and limit our awareness of the deeper and broader and better-feeling part.
It’s that simple. The aim of my practice at this stage is simply to spend more of each day focused on the good-feeling divine part of me, and less on the problem-focused and struggle-oriented human mind.