Can you see the excess fat on your body as equivalent to the excess food in your diet?
It’s a direct cause and effect relationship. Eating more than you need translates into more fat on your body.
The excess fat feels like it’s not really a part of you. That’s why we feel bad when we look in the mirror or catch a glimpse of it.
There’s a thematic link between this fat that feels like it’s not a part of us, and the excess food we eat. Because the moment we try to stop eating we feel bad. Even the thought of eating less feels bad.
But why does it feel bad? Not because eating too much is good. Not because we are being deprived of something we need.
It feels bad because we have been using that excess food to keep ourselves occupied…literally full of something, a distraction from our own selves.
Binge eating – like binge viewing and binge drinking – immerses us in something other. The word itself originally meant to soak wood in liquid until it swells. When binge eating our whole body and mind are entranced with the process. That’s what makes it such a potent escape.
We lose ourselves in food, and the byproduct is excess fat that looks and feels like it’s not truly a part of who we are.
But why do we feel bad? What are we trying to escape from? Why are we seeking to lose ourselves in the first place?
The exact reason differs from person to person, because our lives and our stories are unique. But the bad feeling that comes when we stop eating is not about the food, but about ourselves.
Whether it’s fear or anxiety, shame or self-hate, boredom or disappointment, bad memories or an unwanted reality; whether we need professional help to manage it, or just time and acceptance to reconcile it; finding peace with ourselves and our world is the answer.