When I used to read fantasy books as a kid I’d imagine myself in one of those worlds and invariably I’d end up wanting to be a magician or a sorcerer or wizard.
Not just because they were the most powerful…but because their power implied a complete understanding of how reality really works.
Recently it dawned on me that this is what I really want, and what I am looking for in the Abraham-Hicks material.
While I want abundant wealth and a beautiful home and good relationships and health, what I truly desire is to understand and master my relationship with reality itself.
For a long time I’ve felt there’s something “off” in my relationship with reality. Something I wasn’t understanding or something I’d misunderstood.
In A-H terms I’ve learned that it’s really a three-way relationship: my physical self, my inner being, and reality.
I want to heal this relationship. Along the way I’ve learned that my physical self is the creation of my inner being. I exist as a point of focus for experiencing physical reality, but the greater part of me is non-physical.
I’ve also learned that reality reflects the vibrational point of attraction for both my inner being and my physical self.
My inner being is always positive. It’s a vibrational match for all my desires and preferences, and while it is aware of my whole experience it never focuses on the unwanted or negative aspects.
When my physical self and my inner being are aligned in their focus I experience this alignment in the form of good feeling emotions. But when my physical self focuses towards unwanted or negative things it becomes misaligned with my inner being and I experience that misalignment as negative emotion.
So while my inner being is always attracting pleasing, satisfying, desirable conditions to itself, my physical self has the potential to attract unpleasant, unwanted, undesirable conditions. My reality is the culmination of these elements.
What I really desire is to have clarity in this relationship with my inner being and reality, to truly understand what works and what doesn’t. I want to be clear and knowing in myself at every moment whether I am allowing my inner being to dominate, or resisting it with misaligned focus.
While people avow having changed their lives for the better using the A-H teachings, for me a change for the better entails the repair, restoration, and satisfying mastery of this relationship at the core of my existence.