This series is a way of keeping me focused and honest with myself. Am I really practicing feeling better? Or am I going off on interesting tangents?
Tangents are fine, but the habit of ignoring how I feel is not fine.
Feel better is the bottom line, and it deserves to be my primary focus.
Over time it’s becoming clearer that I’m just not used to feeling better. Used to running off intellectually? Yes. But that hasn’t brought me the lasting happiness I desire.
Perhaps intellectual escape served me for a time. Perhaps it was better than the alternatives. But I have new alternatives now.
Maybe it sounds strange to say I must get serious about feeling better. Yet it’s an easy work and a light burden.
All it takes is practice. And my unwillingness to practice will dissipate in time.