Last night it suddenly hit me that I don’t feel depressed anymore.
I’ve been so focussed on feeling good I didn’t even notice. But there it is: I don’t feel depressed!
Twenty something years of focusing on things that felt bad, enough to make my emotional “average” a negative one.
Two-ish years of learning to feel less bad, then better, ramping up into my thirty day Happiness Challenge and now my easy-going “feel good all day” theme.
So yeah…there it is. Who would have thought that the secret to no longer feeling depressed was to focus on feeling good instead?
It’s obvious in hindsight, and it also seems incredibly easy and straightforward now too. I know it didn’t always look that way, and that’s also testament to this amazing change.
For anyone else suffering from depression, well, I was deeply cynical about this “positive thinking” stuff too. But I can appreciate now that I have steadily and consistently trained myself to focus on thoughts that feel better and better, with the promise that it’s my thoughts alone which create my reality.
A cynical view is that my depressed perspective was “reality” and I’m now simply deluding myself.
But I can’t pick out a single thought that would constitute “delusion” now, nor is there a single thought responsible for my better mood.
I just feel better without even trying, but I know that this is due to all my work retraining my thoughts to uplift me rather than bringing me down.