A Japanese stone guardian lion.
Last night I went to see Avengers: Endgame. I went by myself because one of us needs to look after the baby.
Usually it’s me, because I don’t go out much.
In fact last night was the first time I’ve seen a movie by myself, and the first time I’ve instigated going somewhere for pure enjoyment.
It was wonderful! We have an old Art Deco cinema run by volunteers, and it’s incredibly comfortable and inviting.
It might sound like a small thing but that’s exactly why I’ve never done it. A simple pleasure of going to the movies was easy to deprecate and deny myself in the name of some mistaken seriousness or austerity.
I thought self-denial was virtuous and I cut out all kinds of things. I quashed my own desire to experience life and explore it.
So the real satisfaction and delight last night was not the movie itself but acting on this deeper desire to go out and do something, even inconvenience others, for the sake of my own enjoyment.
Another small milestone to celebrate on the path of feeling good all day!