Today is day 12 of my Happiness Challenge and I’m pleased to say that happiness is not feeling like a challenge anymore.
I’ve been training myself to feel better regardless of the circumstances, and I’m really glad to report that my focused effort is paying off.
I’m pleased to give credit to Esther Hicks and the Abraham teachings. I found them at the right time, letting go of my resistance and accepting that feeling good really is my goal in life.
Other teachings inspired me and gave me hope, but none of them were exactly right.
Of course it wasn’t about the teachings per se, but my own reluctance to accept the simple answer of feeling good.
In hindsight I was seeking Truth and insight and understanding because I thought these would help me feel good.
But I was so caught up in my intellectual seriousness and wanting to justify and explain myself that I couldn’t just feel good directly.
Now I look at all those teachings as…surplus. I don’t need them in order to feel good.
Maybe other people do need them, and I don’t mean that in a disparaging way but in the sense that we all have different questions and hence desire different answers.
People could just as easily look at me and wonder why I’m making such a big deal about relaxing and feeling better.
Ultimately we can only live our own lives and no one else’s. I take pleasure in letting go of my efforts to explain myself and make my thoughts comprehensible to others.
I take pleasure in allowing my authentic feelings to develop and change without looking for consistency with others’ words and actions.
In the end other people can’t validate my own thoughts, feelings and desires, because they are mine. Validity was never truly the question.
That’s why my interests and passions have so frequently turned out to be marginal and obscure by others’ estimation.
I studied philosophy but I’m not really a philosopher. I learn a martial art but it’s rare and unusual. I love coffee but roast and brew my own.
Everything I do, I tend to take in a direction of my own utmost individual experience.
Because in the end it’s all about individual experience. That’s the vantage point life affords us.
We haven’t come into being only to quickly die and be reabsorbed back into some cosmic whole. God didn’t create us as individual points of consciousness only to have us immediately blend into one.
The point is simply to feel good, and enjoy the unfolding of this experience; and if you’re not enjoying it, the tools are available to help you remember how.