This morning I’m feeling uncharacteristically happy, and I love it.
I just got off the computer and found myself feeling like I’d just accomplished something wonderful, but couldn’t remember what it was.
Once upon a time I would have punctured that good mood immediately, worried I was losing my grip on reality.
“You can’t feel good without doing something to deserve it!”
But actually I have done something: I’ve spent the last eight days challenging myself to make feeling good the rule, no exceptions.
And on the back of nearly two years of gradual work at feeling better, I’ve well and truly earned this feeling of ease, satisfaction, and accomplishment.
I’ve become so good at finding relief that last night we took the kids to a movie screening at the park, and I looked after them on my own for four hours, including feeding them and getting them to bed, so my wife could go to a local Symphony performance.
That might not sound like a big deal, but not so long ago I would have felt too tired, too stressed, or too anxious.
I would have asked my wife to choose between the movie or the symphony because both was “too much” for me to handle alone.
I’ve learned to actively find relief, knowing that this not only feels better right away, but also makes my future path easier.
So I’m relishing this good feeling right now, making hay while the sun shines, but also knowing the sun will always shine, and I love the rain just as much anyway!