There’s a saying in the Abraham Hicks material that “you can’t get there from there”.
It has a couple of different meanings, but the meaning I discovered recently is that in my quest for happiness I must at some point feel like a different person.
Living with depression and anxiety for so many years, it makes sense that feeling genuinely better would also be profoundly unfamiliar.
I was so accustomed to my baseline feeling of weariness and dread that going without it almost seems fake.
But the truth is that there’s no continuity from feeling terrible to feeling good. A change in mood is like becoming a different person, and for that reason it’s not possible for the depressed anxious version of me to go along for the ride.
I kept fixating on those negative feelings looking for a solution or some means of transmuting lead into gold. But that’s not how these things work.
Negative feelings are something we create in ourselves, a by-product of the misalignment between our inner being and the beliefs or thoughts we are focused upon.
Those negative feelings don’t need to change, it’s our focus and our thoughts and beliefs that need to change. Then the negative feelings will simply be gone.
It really does feel like becoming a different person after all.