So I’ve described the first step in understanding the psychological/emotional issues that correspond to a physical illness or ailment.
It’s not a quick or easy step to take, but you have to start somewhere.
Looking at the emotional aspect of the illness is like entering a whole new domain that you’ve hitherto ignored. It’s no surprise you’ll take time to refine your understanding of it.
What I’ve done in the past with my autoimmune disease is to start searching online for people having similar thoughts. I tried it again, looking at myopia in the context of fear and vulnerability or powerlessness.
Two of the results were relevant to my search:
Neither of them is exactly right for me. That’s not the point.
The point is that they offer alternative perspectives that help me further refine my own search.
They also identify things like tension in the neck and eye muscles that definitely apply to me, but would not necessarily have come to my attention.
I went through this same process of searching for relevant information and insights with my autoimmune disease, and while I had to find my own answers in the end, it did help to have similar but different materials to draw on in my search.
I agreed with other sources that said perfectionism, stress, and a driven mentality were the cause of the pain I suffered, but I still had to find the exact combination and iteration of these qualities that triggered the flare-up of my symptoms.
Once I identified them, I was able to reverse them, by consciously accepting all the negative potential outcomes that were motivating my driven state of mind in the first place.
For example, the stress corresponded at one stage to thinking I had to do nothing but write articles. I was so focused on writing articles, I could feel my mind shift into a different mode.
The strangest thing was that it felt really good. Probably because it involved blocking out and suppressing all fears and doubts.
To overcome this state of mind I had to consciously accept that I might never write another article again in my entire life and that would be ok. I had to accept that I might live in poverty and obscurity, devoid of achievement, and that would be ok.
Obviously these were painful thoughts to accept, but accepting them neutralised the intensity that had caused my joints to become inflamed as my immune system attacked them.
I don’t know if I can make an exact parallel with myopia, but I’ll continue to examine it until I understand it as best I can.